Tag: grief

  • Renaming ADHD

    Renaming ADHD

    April 29, 2026 Lately I have been giving a lot of thought to the names of things – psychological concepts in particular, and the manner in which those names and terms cause me to have sudden irritation or ugher (ugh + anger = ugher), or to roll my eyes right out of my head when…

  • Introducing Hatty McHatface

    Introducing Hatty McHatface

    Inspiration hits in the strangest ways.

  • Quitting Smoking One Last Time (hit me baby one more time)

    March 20, 2026 Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt… literally. Two times ago, when I wanted to quit on Feb 1st, I ended up going to a one person performance called “A Brief History of Smoking Cigarettes”, written and performed by Deanna Jones. I had come by the tickets in a serendipitous fashion, so…

  • Unstuck in Time…

    November 2025 (I’m pretty sure) I don’t even know what day it is. Sometimes I have to really think to figure out the month, or the year, or my actual age. I recently turned 50 and had to keep reminding myself that I wasn’t turning 40, or 30, or 60. I just knew it was…

  • Circle Game

    I almost never do this; write a post that I intend to publish immediately without worrying and overthinking about how to frame my thoughts. Nothing but a cursory edit. My dreams are sad and dark lately. Sad for my younger self as I navigate parenting my now adult child.  I am sitting in a waiting room…

  • The Little Train of Thought That Couldn’t Stop Itself…

    The Little Train of Thought That Couldn’t Stop Itself…

    Or, Fuck Motivation  Feb. 1, 2025 Today I attended a music recital in which the child of my boyfriend was performing. About halfway through I started to cry, which shocked and embarrassed me. I am not one to cry, or express any emotion, really, if I can help it. Fighting emotions requires a ton of…

  • I am a Gaslighting Hypocrite – On Politics

    Jan 26, 2025 I feel like a horrible person who has been gaslighting a minority.  I have spent the past few years trying to reassure my transgender child, who is now an adult, that just because people vote conservative for fiscal reasons it doesn’t mean that they agree with the social agenda put forth by…

  • Throwdown: Acceptance vs. Hope

    Tuesday, September 15, 2024 Ahh, the massive interrobang of hope. The working title of this post has been “Fuck Hope” for quite some time, but I’m trying to be less sweary. Hope is supposed to be positive, something you turn to in moments of darkness and despair to get you through, but I  have often…

  • Mango Pits

    Mango Pits

    Tuesday, June 25, 2024 For some time now, I have been working through Rupi Kaur’s book “Healing Through Words” which is essentially a collection of guided writing prompts and some instruction on and insight into her writing process. She has some very short yet powerful poems which she calls “peach pits” because you start with…

  • On Quitting Self-Blame

    On Quitting Self-Blame

    Feeling stuck in therapy? Double entendre intended. Our minds are powerful, for better or for worse. This post is about how detrimental self-blame can be when we use it to deflect issues in our lives that need to be dealt with, and to punish ourselves.