Tag: life
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Throwdown: Acceptance vs. Hope
Tuesday, September 15, 2024 Ahh, the massive interrobang of hope. The working title of this post has been “Fuck Hope” for quite some time, but I’m trying to be less sweary. Hope is supposed to be positive, something you turn to in moments of darkness and despair to get you through, but I have often…
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Why I Am Not Writing…
March 3, 2024 I joke around a lot about being an overthinker, as I understand how ridiculous it can get, especially when I begin to overthink my overthinking. I have never been able to comprehend how people manage to see a clear path forward and execute plans without doing the insane mental gymnastics that I…
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Mango Pits
Tuesday, June 25, 2024 For some time now, I have been working through Rupi Kaur’s book “Healing Through Words” which is essentially a collection of guided writing prompts and some instruction on and insight into her writing process. She has some very short yet powerful poems which she calls “peach pits” because you start with…
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Controlled Serendipity?!
Monday, June 24, 2024 Serendipity From Oxford Languages: Synonyms: Chance, boon, fortune Origin 1754: coined by Horace Walpole, suggested by The Three Princes of Serendip, the title of a fairy tale in which the heroes ‘were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things they were not in quest of’. I am in a…
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Hypocrisy: Calling Myself Out
May 25, 2024 I am sitting in a family counseling appointment with my child who uses the pronoun “it”, holding my breath and dreading the expected onslaught of rage and resentment that often comes my way during these meetings. I am so done with therapy; I have been in personal counseling off and on for…
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Why I Write
Tuesday, April 23, 2024 I have not been writing lately. Life exploded and some seriously unhealthy patterns have re-emerged that I have no idea how to cope with. I haven’t wanted to write even to process the crap of my life, which is what I usually do in these situations. There was a time when I…
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The Summer of 70 Books
Monday, March 25, 2024 The Summer of 70 Books During the summer of 2021, my mental health had declined to the point that I finally realized that I was severely suicidal and needed to go on some meds. One of the things I was doing to avoid facing how I was really feeling was to…
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About This Blog
About This Blog The Interrobang Me Hard, Baby blog will cover the broad strokes of my life, in no particular order or category. I tend to narrate events in my head, particularly when things are stressful and I am searching for solutions or coping mechanisms, so I thought I would start writing these narratives down. Enough people…
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Gaslighting Myself
Gaslighting Myself I began writing this piece a couple of years ago now, when I was feeling frustrated that I was starting EMDR and still in counselling for issues I had been working on in therapy for almost two decades. Being a chronic overthinker, counselling can be a double edged sword for me. In my…
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On Quitting Self-Blame
Feeling stuck in therapy? Double entendre intended. Our minds are powerful, for better or for worse. This post is about how detrimental self-blame can be when we use it to deflect issues in our lives that need to be dealt with, and to punish ourselves.
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