Tag: life
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Controlled Serendipity?!
Monday, June 24, 2024 Serendipity From Oxford Languages: Synonyms: Chance, boon, fortune Origin 1754: coined by Horace Walpole, suggested by The Three Princes of Serendip, the title of a fairy tale in which the heroes ‘were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things they were not in quest of’. I am in a…
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Hypocrisy: Calling Myself Out
May 25, 2024 I am sitting in a family counseling appointment with my child who uses the pronoun “it”, holding my breath and dreading the expected onslaught of rage and resentment that often comes my way during these meetings. I am so done with therapy; I have been in personal counseling off and on for…
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Why I Write
Tuesday, April 23, 2024 I have not been writing lately. Life exploded and some seriously unhealthy patterns have re-emerged that I have no idea how to cope with. I haven’t wanted to write even to process the crap of my life, which is what I usually do in these situations. There was a time when I…
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The Summer of 70 Books
Monday, March 25, 2024 The Summer of 70 Books During the summer of 2021, my mental health had declined to the point that I finally realized that I was severely suicidal and needed to go on some meds. One of the things I was doing to avoid facing how I was really feeling was to…
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About This Blog
About This Blog The Interrobang Me Hard, Baby blog will cover the broad strokes of my life, in no particular order or category. I tend to narrate events in my head, particularly when things are stressful and I am searching for solutions or coping mechanisms, so I thought I would start writing these narratives down. Enough people…
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Gaslighting Myself
Gaslighting Myself I began writing this piece a couple of years ago now, when I was feeling frustrated that I was starting EMDR and still in counselling for issues I had been working on in therapy for almost two decades. Being a chronic overthinker, counselling can be a double edged sword for me. In my…
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On Quitting Self-Blame
On Quitting Self-Blame February 24, 2024 The first time I went to therapy after my child was born, it was because my then husband Garrett told me that there was something wrong with me and I needed to fix myself. He said this while he was having his first affair (which he would not admit…
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Family is Complicated (and the birds go tweet…)
Family is Complicated (and the birds go tweet…) Monday, February 19, 2024 AKA Family Day In the “About” section of this blog, (https://interrobangmehardbaby.blog/about/) I say that I will cover the broad strokes of my life, including complicated family and friendship dynamics. So far I have avoided the topic of family and complicated friendships, except for…
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Valentine’s Day Interrobang (not as dirty as it sounds…)
Valentine’s Day Interrobang (not as dirty as it sounds…) February 13, 2013 “I can’t wait to see what you have planned for tomorrow night!” says my husband excitedly from across the room. We’re both putting away laundry and tidying our bedroom before bed. My blood runs cold and I feel like I am losing my…
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Lost and Found Family
Lost and Found Family December 2017 “Slow down, Chloe, the family doesn’t need to lose both of you in one day.” This was the last thought I had as I was entering the on ramp trying to beat the car that was clearly speeding in the lane I needed to merge into. I took my…
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