Tag: mental health
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The Little Train of Thought That Couldn’t Stop Itself…
Or, Fuck Motivation Feb. 1, 2025 Today I attended a music recital in which the child of my boyfriend was performing. About halfway through I started to cry, which shocked and embarrassed me. I am not one to cry, or express any emotion, really, if I can help it. Fighting emotions requires a ton of…
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Throwdown: Acceptance vs. Hope
Tuesday, September 15, 2024 Ahh, the massive interrobang of hope. The working title of this post has been “Fuck Hope” for quite some time, but I’m trying to be less sweary. Hope is supposed to be positive, something you turn to in moments of darkness and despair to get you through, but I have often…
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Why I Write
Tuesday, April 23, 2024 I have not been writing lately. Life exploded and some seriously unhealthy patterns have re-emerged that I have no idea how to cope with. I haven’t wanted to write even to process the crap of my life, which is what I usually do in these situations. There was a time when I…
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About This Blog
About This Blog The Interrobang Me Hard, Baby blog will cover the broad strokes of my life, in no particular order or category. I tend to narrate events in my head, particularly when things are stressful and I am searching for solutions or coping mechanisms, so I thought I would start writing these narratives down. Enough people…
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Gaslighting Myself
Gaslighting Myself I began writing this piece a couple of years ago now, when I was feeling frustrated that I was starting EMDR and still in counselling for issues I had been working on in therapy for almost two decades. Being a chronic overthinker, counselling can be a double edged sword for me. In my…
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On Puberty Blockers
On Puberty Blockers February 2024 “At face value I don’t see a problem with waiting for kids to be age of majority for major surgery or drug treatments.” After Ruby came out as trans, I had a few friends and family who were curious and wanted to know my perspective on many issues. I appreciate…
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Lost and Found Family
Lost and Found Family December 2017 “Slow down, Chloe, the family doesn’t need to lose both of you in one day.” This was the last thought I had as I was entering the on ramp trying to beat the car that was clearly speeding in the lane I needed to merge into. I took my…
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On Parenting a Transgender Child
On Parenting a Transgender Child February 4, 2024 The original intention for this blog was to present brief snapshots of my life that I thought would help others who might be experiencing similar issues. Parenting my child has been a journey that I never expected, and I knew when I decided to become a mom…
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My Truman Show, Vol. III
My Truman Show, Vol. III August 2023 “Mom I’m going to tell you something and I need you not to freak the fuck out.” Cold rush of panic punches hard in my gut and chest. We’re driving through the woods, leaving the camp that my (now adult) child has been at for the past five…
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Why No Divorce?!
Why No Divorce?! “You’ve been separated for nine years?! Is there a reason you don’t want to get divorced?” Shit. The reasons I was separated for nine years without seeking divorce can be summed up in some of the things my ex said to me both while we were together and while we were in…
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