Tag: mental-health
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Hypocrisy: Calling Myself Out
May 25, 2024 I am sitting in a family counseling appointment with my child who uses the pronoun “it”, holding my breath and dreading the expected onslaught of rage and resentment that often comes my way during these meetings. I am so done with therapy; I have been in personal counseling off and on for…
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Why I Write
Tuesday, April 23, 2024 I have not been writing lately. Life exploded and some seriously unhealthy patterns have re-emerged that I have no idea how to cope with. I haven’t wanted to write even to process the crap of my life, which is what I usually do in these situations. There was a time when I…
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The Summer of 70 Books
Monday, March 25, 2024 The Summer of 70 Books During the summer of 2021, my mental health had declined to the point that I finally realized that I was severely suicidal and needed to go on some meds. One of the things I was doing to avoid facing how I was really feeling was to…
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On Quitting Self-Blame
Feeling stuck in therapy? Double entendre intended. Our minds are powerful, for better or for worse. This post is about how detrimental self-blame can be when we use it to deflect issues in our lives that need to be dealt with, and to punish ourselves.
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Family is Complicated (and the birds go tweet…)
Family is Complicated (and the birds go tweet…) Monday, February 19, 2024 AKA Family Day In the “About” section of this blog, (https://interrobangmehardbaby.blog/about/) I say that I will cover the broad strokes of my life, including complicated family and friendship dynamics. So far I have avoided the topic of family and complicated friendships, except for…
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Valentine’s Day Interrobang (not as dirty as it sounds…)
Valentine’s Day Interrobang (not as dirty as it sounds…) February 13, 2013 “I can’t wait to see what you have planned for tomorrow night!” says my husband excitedly from across the room. We’re both putting away laundry and tidying our bedroom before bed. My blood runs cold and I feel like I am losing my…
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On Parenting a Transgender Child
On Parenting a Transgender Child February 4, 2024 The original intention for this blog was to present brief snapshots of my life that I thought would help others who might be experiencing similar issues. Parenting my child has been a journey that I never expected, and I knew when I decided to become a mom…
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In Defense of Self-Compassion
In Defense of Self-Compassion January 30, 2024 Ironically, the only person I feel the need to defend self-compassion to is… ME! The original title of this piece was going to be Fuck Self-Compassion or something equally erudite. There’s a whole series of posts in my drafts called Fuck Motivation, Fuck Vulnerability, Fuck Gratitude, and, well,…
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My Truman Show Part III
iii. Multitudes August 2023 “Mom I’m going to tell you something and I need you not to freak the fuck out.” Cold rush of panic punches hard in my gut and chest. We’re driving through the woods, leaving the camp that my (now adult) child has been at for the past five days. It’s a…
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What Goes Around…
What Goes Around… February 2010 Rage. I am feeling intense, roiling, nauseating rage but I can not show it. If I show an ounce of emotion I will be labelled a hysterical mom and no one will take me seriously. “Yeah, things are fine. It doesn’t really affect our lives at all.“ Rage. My husband…
Interrobang Me Hard, Baby 