Tag: life
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Unstuck in Time…
November 2025 (I’m pretty sure) I don’t even know what day it is. Sometimes I have to really think to figure out the month, or the year, or my actual age. I recently turned 50 and had to keep reminding myself that I wasn’t turning 40, or 30, or 60. I just knew it was…
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Circle Game
I almost never do this; write a post that I intend to publish immediately without worrying and overthinking about how to frame my thoughts. Nothing but a cursory edit. My dreams are sad and dark lately. Sad for my younger self as I navigate parenting my now adult child. I am sitting in a waiting room…
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The Little Train of Thought That Couldn’t Stop Itself…
Or, Fuck Motivation Feb. 1, 2025 Today I attended a music recital in which the child of my boyfriend was performing. About halfway through I started to cry, which shocked and embarrassed me. I am not one to cry, or express any emotion, really, if I can help it. Fighting emotions requires a ton of…
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2025!
January 5, 2025 I haven’t written a post in so long… Life exploded, as it is wont to do. I wish that I could write about how life exploded, but I am trying to “Mary Karr” my way through by not writing about things when they are too raw. A good memoir is written when…
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I SPY… ADHD?!
October 29, 2024 A few people who know me well know that I have always wanted to do this. The idea behind this blog was just to get stuff written down and stored someplace, all these random and ridiculous ideas I have that I hope to come back to one day when I have time…
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Throwdown: Acceptance vs. Hope
Tuesday, September 15, 2024 Ahh, the massive interrobang of hope. The working title of this post has been “Fuck Hope” for quite some time, but I’m trying to be less sweary. Hope is supposed to be positive, something you turn to in moments of darkness and despair to get you through, but I have often…
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Why I Am Not Writing…
March 3, 2024 I joke around a lot about being an overthinker, as I understand how ridiculous it can get, especially when I begin to overthink my overthinking. I have never been able to comprehend how people manage to see a clear path forward and execute plans without doing the insane mental gymnastics that I…
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Mango Pits
Tuesday, June 25, 2024 For some time now, I have been working through Rupi Kaur’s book “Healing Through Words” which is essentially a collection of guided writing prompts and some instruction on and insight into her writing process. She has some very short yet powerful poems which she calls “peach pits” because you start with…
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Controlled Serendipity?!
Monday, June 24, 2024 Serendipity From Oxford Languages: Synonyms: Chance, boon, fortune Origin 1754: coined by Horace Walpole, suggested by The Three Princes of Serendip, the title of a fairy tale in which the heroes ‘were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things they were not in quest of’. I am in a…
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Hypocrisy: Calling Myself Out
May 25, 2024 I am sitting in a family counseling appointment with my child who uses the pronoun “it”, holding my breath and dreading the expected onslaught of rage and resentment that often comes my way during these meetings. I am so done with therapy; I have been in personal counseling off and on for…
Interrobang Me Hard, Baby 