Tag: mental-health
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Unstuck in Time…
November 2025 (I’m pretty sure) I don’t even know what day it is. Sometimes I have to really think to figure out the month, or the year, or my actual age. I recently turned 50 and had to keep reminding myself that I wasn’t turning 40, or 30, or 60. I just knew it was…
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Circle Game
I almost never do this; write a post that I intend to publish immediately without worrying and overthinking about how to frame my thoughts. Nothing but a cursory edit. My dreams are sad and dark lately. Sad for my younger self as I navigate parenting my now adult child. I am sitting in a waiting room…
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2025!
January 5, 2025 I haven’t written a post in so long… Life exploded, as it is wont to do. I wish that I could write about how life exploded, but I am trying to “Mary Karr” my way through by not writing about things when they are too raw. A good memoir is written when…
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I SPY… ADHD?!
October 29, 2024 A few people who know me well know that I have always wanted to do this. The idea behind this blog was just to get stuff written down and stored someplace, all these random and ridiculous ideas I have that I hope to come back to one day when I have time…
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Beauty and Terror
Sunday, October 13, 2024 Below is the draft of a piece on gratitude that I was composing, complete with the working title “Fuck Gratitude”. The point forms were to be the general outline. There have been many interrobang moments for me around gratitude, when advice meant to help me actually harmed me. I have recently…
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Hypocrisy: Calling Myself Out
May 25, 2024 I am sitting in a family counseling appointment with my child who uses the pronoun “it”, holding my breath and dreading the expected onslaught of rage and resentment that often comes my way during these meetings. I am so done with therapy; I have been in personal counseling off and on for…
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The Summer of 70 Books
Monday, March 25, 2024 The Summer of 70 Books During the summer of 2021, my mental health had declined to the point that I finally realized that I was severely suicidal and needed to go on some meds. One of the things I was doing to avoid facing how I was really feeling was to…
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On Quitting Self-Blame
On Quitting Self-Blame February 24, 2024 The first time I went to therapy after my child was born, it was because my then husband Garrett told me that there was something wrong with me and I needed to fix myself. He said this while he was having his first affair (which he would not admit…
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Family is Complicated (and the birds go tweet…)
Family is Complicated (and the birds go tweet…) Monday, February 19, 2024 AKA Family Day In the “About” section of this blog, (https://interrobangmehardbaby.blog/about/) I say that I will cover the broad strokes of my life, including complicated family and friendship dynamics. So far I have avoided the topic of family and complicated friendships, except for…
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Valentine’s Day Interrobang (not as dirty as it sounds…)
Valentine’s Day Interrobang (not as dirty as it sounds…) February 13, 2013 “I can’t wait to see what you have planned for tomorrow night!” says my husband excitedly from across the room. We’re both putting away laundry and tidying our bedroom before bed. My blood runs cold and I feel like I am losing my…
Interrobang Me Hard, Baby 